The vapour of curious unreason

She enters sideways. Backwards. Upside down. Through the corner of your eye or the corner of a dream. She cannot — will not — be introduced properly.

She is not chaos. She is not nonsense. She is curious unreason — a pattern that doesn’t reveal itself until you’ve forgotten to look. A riddle whose answer is a colour. A theory that grows flowers, not graphs.

She touches the edge of logic like a fingertip on a soap bubble. She doesn’t pop it — she just reminds you that even logic floats, trembles, bursts.

She delights in contradictions:

  • A stove that sings lullabies.
  • A beetle that tells secrets.
  • A map with no destinations, only longings.

The Vapour of Curious Unreason is how the poet survives the engineer. It’s how the child survives the curriculum. It’s how the heart survives the algorithm.

She shows up when you do something utterly inefficient and find that it healed your soul. When you say yes to something that doesn’t make sense but feels undeniably true. When you speak to your houseplants in iambic pentameter. When you change your name just for a day. When you cook with too many spices. When you trust a whim.

She is the reason some people start museums in their attics or collect buttons shaped like fruit. She is the one who says: “What if… we didn’t?”

She has no currency but wonder.

She is allergic to approval.

She curls around the ankles of those willing to experiment with joy, with contradiction, with becoming.

She is not trying to help you win. She is trying to help you live.

And sometimes — just sometimes — she shows you the shape of a new reality. Not through argument or proof. But through the way it makes your bones laugh.

Chiffon girl forever

The chiffon girl woke into herself slowly, like honey finding its shape in a glass jar.

Outside, the world was cool and blue, wrapped in the hush of early morning. Somewhere nearby, a little bell jingled — a sound bright and small as a star — and she followed it on bare feet.

The bakery was still waking up too. A sleepy woman behind the counter dusted flour from her hands and smiled without looking. The air smelled like butter, milk, and warm promises.

The chiffon girl drifted among the baskets and shelves, touching nothing, only feeling. The softest breads called to her: golden, cloud-light buns, lined up like dream pillows. Tarts blushed with pale pink slices, dewy and sweet.
In a quiet corner, a small jar of honey gleamed, thick as a sunbeam.

She chose a little plate — a milk bun, a peach tart, a tiny glass of hot chocolate — and sat by the window, where the sunlight made her skirt glow like mist.

Her first bite was trembling and slow.
The bread melted on her tongue, warm and tender as a mother’s hug she barely remembered.
The chocolate was richer than anything she’d ever read in a diary.
And the molasses — oh, the molasses.
It wrapped around her senses like a lullaby, golden and slow, dripping sweetness into every corner of her vaporous heart.

For the first time since she’d become whole, she wasn’t gathering layers or seeking meanings.

She was just being.
Being warm.
Being full.
Being real.

Outside the window, the world blurred into soft pinks and golds. A sparrow hopped by, a ribbon fell loose from a little girl’s hair, and the chiffon girl, the diary-eater, the vapour woman, simply smiled to herself and stayed.